The “who” I am on the outside is just the crust--sometimes crusty. This me is obvious to both of us—and everyone else, whether they see it for what it is or not. Fortunately, I like the crust of most things…pie, pizza, artisan bread, prime rib, etc.
But who am I on the inside…at the next level deeper?
Of course, there is the “me” I know through my ego. Others recognize this me even at times when I don’t. Unfortunately, my ego is not exactly what I would call unbiased. Worse! It seems to take on a life of its own. Sometimes I think it’s my best friend when actually, it’s my worst enemy.
Is there a “me” tucked even deeper in…deep beneath my ego? What button on the self-elevator do I press to get down to this floor? Seems to me this is the level of my soul…the true, raw and beautiful essence of who I am…and am becoming.
I know precious little about the person I am down here, God. Far beneath my crust, being at this soul level feels like I’m traveling in a foreign land—at times exciting, at times frightening, and almost always full of surprises.
I will say, here I gain alluring glimpses of something I can only imagine to be my essential being. Here I see through my ego to one who is peaceful and pliable…one who is full of joy and unthreatened…one who is pleasantly open to your life-giving, life-transforming presence.
This, I know, is your realm, God…the realm of true Life...the "kingdom of heaven" which Jesus spoke of living from, within and toward. It's the level to which you beckon us, in which you meet us, and through which your Spirit invites us to know all things.
Including you.
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly." (John 10:10 NRSV)
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